One more day...

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

11-13-13

26.3 weeks growing this peanut

Well my goodness....one more day down.

I doubted, on many different occasions, that baby Hebb and I would even make this far.

What a miracle.

It has been a constant roller coaster of emotions.

 But we are still fighting, fighting mightily.

Today was uneventful, just how we prefer it.

 I seriously can't believe how high my spirits have been through all of this- and all the doctors comment every morning on how positive and gracefully I have handled all this. I KNOW its because my sweet  
Ollie 

 is carrying me. He is with me, I just feel it. Trust me, I wish I could see him physically holding me, but I can not deny his constant spirit and force to fight that has filled my entire body. I am completely filled with courage, determination and hope. At this point, we still do not know the outcome, it could be very negative and sad, BUT it could be very positive and happy. 

I choose positive and happy until I am shown differently. 

.this is just me, chillin and trying to stay focused on a positive outcome. don't worry I get sponge baths now and haven't washed my hair in over a week, but I still feel good. 

What if it all turns out wonderful?

What if I sat here negative and depressed and it all turned out wonderful? 

No point in focusing on the negative until it presents itself, right?

Until then, mightily fighting through.......

 Currently @ 9:16pm

* no cramping

*no more bleeding-yay

*baby looks great on monitors and is fighting hard-base line heart-rate of 150

*i am feeling good today, lots of energy

*not bored yet, still lots going on

*amniotic fluid level is 4.6 cm---a big huge yay-we started with 1.8cm

*the baby has grown 200 grams in 2 weeks, not a huge amount, but in the 30 percentile, the doc said I am probably in the 30 percentile myself so its appropriate for the little peanut.

LOVE TO YOU ALL!!! 

THANK YOU FOR HELPING CHRIS AND I CARRY THIS HEAVY BURDEN. 

WE COULDN'T DO IT WITHOUT ALL YOUR LOVE, CONSTANT SUPPORT AND MANY PRAYERS. I SERIOUSLY AM HUMBLED BY THOSE WHO HAVE REACHED OUT TO US, MOST OF YOU ARE STRANGERS....YOU ARE SO KIND!!!

.grams is sure taking great care and having fun with miss poppers. 

Moving again, not so fast

Friday November 15, 2013

OHSU

Labor and Delivery Floor

26.5 weeks Gestating

One day stronger....

Yesterday was the first day I can actully say I was a little bored. 

I watched 3 movies. 

Never in my life have I done this.

 It was nice, I guess.

I am sitting here on the labor and delivery floor. I was going to be transfered last night at 8pm, and about 5 mins. before I decided to make sure the bleeding had stopped completely. Well, it hadn't.
 So, no moving for me.
 I spent the last two nights hearing woman scream and moan in agony.
I hate this sound.
It makes me feel physically sick.
 I can imagine their pain all too well and don't like hearing it all day and night, because I am not ready to go into labor any time soon....
So, here I stay and try to sleep another night.

Status Update:

*Baby peanut has looked great on the monitors the last few days-no scares with cord compressions.

*My bleeding has stopped.

*Amniotic fluid continues to leak out.

*I have 2 IVs and they are stupid and ugly.

*I can shower now on my own-I washed my hair and shaved my arm pits, actually my mom did both of these for me!

*I might not have to have a nasty classical c section, just a regular.

*Baby is still breach.
*Was excited for a sleep-over with Chris, but he cancelled last minute.

*In general I feel pretty good!

I put my trust in God and these amazing doctors here at OHSU......

I have been reading everything on PPROM-pre term ruptured membranes, and studying up about the NICU. 

Here is some info if any of you are interested in reading more about my condition. There are many stories of hope too.

http://www.inkan.se/pprom/

Thank you for your prayers, they are felt.

Rough 24 hours

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

26.2 weeks gestating baby Hebb

We had another eventful 24 hours. We don't like exciting events around here-at least not any time soon-but they seem to just keep coming up. So, like I said before there hasn't been a dull moment and no time to read my books or knit because I'm constantly being transferred from floor to floor-due to moderate bright red bleeding, many doctors coming in, lots of monitoring of the babies strong heart, being pricked by several needles to check my blood levels, lots of blood, another steroid shot to jump start babies lungs, and magnesium drips-to prevent brain bleeds and cerebral palsy for the little peanut.

So, it's been quite scary around here and unpredictable, but all the pokes, sleepless nights, aching back and numb butt, headaches and no eating for 24 hours are all worth it for this little baby!!!

Our sweet little fighter continues to fight, as do we!!!

My sweet momma visits to just hang out-and she even giggles lots too oh and rubs my back and legs!!! I love her! 

The doctors have been amazing and I love that there are several doctors that come in a day, perinatologists, an OB and the neonatologist. We all live minute to minute around here. They are well prepared that I might go into labor at any moment or that the babe might be in distress. I have full confidence in them and am trusting them to make the best decisions for us. Of course, I look up everything they say, so I'm well informed and educated. I love that OHSU is a teaching school so they are up on all current research and seem highly skilled-and many are so sensitive too. I have made many wonderful friends.

Some nurses I have really formed a bond with, these nurses are so sweet and knowledgable too-they even give me warm wash cloth baths-with yummy smelling soap, help me put on my ugly hospital granny panties, they see all my body parts-my bum hangs out of the gown (I think it's funny and let it hang out, no same here. When else can you do this?? Ha), they guide me with their gentle hand to the toilet because I am weak, when they talk to me they put their hand on my leg or hold my hand, they get me things when I ask please and point, they clean up lots blood and yucky towels, they even smell lots of very unpleasant smells, and most importantly they give me comfort and hope. 

What a great dad when moms on leave. Love and miss them so much. Chris dressed her in Ollie's pjs. 

Status update:

As of right now @ 9:00 AM

*Baby fighter Hebb has been stable through all of this. Yay

*Having an ultrasound this afternoon to see if baby has been growing appropriately-say a prayer please.

*My bleeding has decreased significantly since yesterday-this could change within minutes.

*No cramping. Yay

*Currently off magnesium sulfate-which means they aren't anticipating continued labor.Yay

*No more room changing-I will stay on labor and delivery with one on one care until baby arrives.

*Today is the worst I have felt-its not very bad though-but I still smile, am polite, and try to stay positive. :-))

*Baby is still breach.

*A mild contraction here and there.

*We made it one more day! Yay

*Breakfast will be here in 15 mins. Yay

(As many of you know, I like natural everything and try to implement that in my life whenever possible. This hospital stay has been quite difficult for me, but I am so thankful for modern medicine. I am trusting these doctors and God. I have turned it over to them-and we fight together and do whatever needs to be done for a healthy and safe arrival of this precious angel sent straight from our sweet Ollie's arms, just like little Poppers was!) 

~A huge thank you for all the prayers, good vibes, kindness, fasting, love, flowers, phone calls, emails, nice notes, and constant faith in baby Hebb and I~

             .Miss my girl.