why ya gotta be so, RUDE?

The last 3 days, I have been at a DoTERRA essential oil convention. It was inspiring, educational and uplifting-and smelt very nice too! It was neat to learn more about what DoTERRA is doing in the world and how they are creating more jobs. I am proud to be a part of this great company.

Since losing Ollie, I need things that uplift me, inspire me and make me want to live and do better-besides my kids. I don't need negativity in my life, I already have a heavy load to carry. So, whenever available, I try to surround myself with positive things-like this convention.

The smells of the oils alone made me feel uplifted-truly amazing! Smells do a lot for our mood.

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Today there was a very inspiring speaker, whom I am sure many have heard of, 

Stephanie Nielson.

 What a beautiful and courageous woman she is! 

She is owning her body and her trial and doing good things in the world. I cried through her entire message. A few things I want to pass on from here are, 

to own your life and your trials. 

This is a very hard thing to do and takes a lot of practice and many years, and then still we may never own our trial or accept it. I have been working hard lately to own my life and my trials. No one else can live it for me, no one else can take them away and no one else can make them better except-----ME. 

Stephanie also talked about what is on the inside not our appearance and that

 'our hearts matter most'.

 We are so concerned with appearance in our society. She said 'she was learning to accept herself in a world that does not accept her'. I have been thinking about this a lot lately, because I am trying to imagine my spirit and look at things from a spirits standpoint. I try to talk and lead my life with my heart. It really changes the way I act and things I do. Our bodies are just physical and get cremated or put in the ground when we die. Our spirit are what matter-our hearts! Stephanies heart is big and she she promised God she would share her story of HOPE- and that she did today for me.

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After the event I went on instagram and decided to look up Nienie. She posted a picture of her on stage speaking...there were a few comments and I wanted to comment too. I looked at the comment above mine, it was a lady (excuse me, she wasn't a lady, a lady wouldn't say such things) wishing her well and saying that she could no longer follow her because there were so many burnt victims out there not living in mansions or writing books or making millions off their stories.

Hence my post title, why ya gotta be so rude?? Why are people so quick to 'assume' they know everything and the intentions of people? I honestly want someone to have millions and mansions after such a grueling trial. I want that too.....It would make things easier. Someone that has been burned on 80% of their body and had to learn to walk and talk and chew again deserves this. I would want the best for someone facing a horrible trial-and I think majority of people do too. Its those darn 1% that get our attention and make nasty squeaks.

My point of bringing this up is to help us think before we act-myself included. Words are hurtful. I have been so short with everyone the last 2 years-no excuses for my actions, but it is hard to feel like you are running a marathon every.day.of.your.life. Exhausting I tell you. I hope we can all be a bit kinder, judge a bit less and love a lot more! Life is so short and we never get toady to do over. 

Live the life you dreamed of...I believe I can still accomplish this and you can too!

Ollies buddy came to play

Ollie's little friend who he played with and was just becoming buddies with, Jace, came over to our house to play, but Ollie wasn't here....Such a hard thing to hear and accept. Ollie just isn't here anymore. One very normal day he fell into my washer and drowned, we buried him and hes now not in our home physically-but I do know his spirit resides with us continuously. My heart and mind do not understand any of this. I never will accept that Ollie is physically gone from our world.

I had such bittersweet feelings when Jaces mom asked me to watch him. I love Jace and I love holding him, kissing him and sniffing him. I love to see how tall Ollie would be. I love to investigate and kiss his hands. I love to watch his little boy curiosities. BUT it is just so hard. My heart loves it, but at the same time is torn and shattered for the longing of my boy, my Ollie when I see others progressing in their mortal lives......Its very healing for me, but very intense. very bittersweet.

Well here's to Jace and the cute little boy he is. We had a fun time together. I documented the entire day. I was imagining it were Ollie and Poppy playing-how it should have been. It was far better than Poppy playing alone all the time. She loved Jace and was very entertained!!!

and btw Jace is one day younger than Ollie....so I love him even more.

I made him pose for me the entire day, he was so sweet.

Jace has always loved Ollie skate board.

Chilaxin just as Ollie use to do, with his hands crossed under his head.

Singing and dancing for Poppy just as I imagined Ollie would be doing.

Watching daddy take off on his motorcycle.

Its suppose to be Ollie and Poppy, but that smile on Jace is precious.

Playing the drum that Ollie loved so much.

Squeezing Poppy and her hating it, just as I imagined.....

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I hold onto the hope of seeing Ollie again. I believe we are eternal beings. No end and no beginning. We will all die and hopefully live with Heavenly Father again. 

 Here is a video on what I believe about families and eternal life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MiF_HKoFr4 

Here is another video from a very inspiring mother and woman, Stephanie Nielson. I like the title of the video, "My New Life". I can relate. This new life I now live. I am barely beginning to pick up the broken pieces.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KHDvxPjsm8E